What happened to your book? | Show notes

This past weekend, I had an interesting conversation on my way home from Kat’s going away party– I was in the car with her aunt and grandma, and her aunt asked me what had ever happened to my book? (I had self-published in 2011/2012) and though I had published 2 she had only read the first and as she said: she was hooked.

I awkwardly explained that I had become self-conscious about it, and had taken it down in an effort to edit it and make it something more to my liking. But a thought struck me recently– when it comes to books, how important is it that I like the book I’m creating really?

Even though it’s still in progress I feel like I do actually like it now more than ever, but does it really matter? I mean you think about something like even this channel– I don’t watch my videos further than editing them. I cringe watching it when my boyfriend puts it on– even if I like the video, my perception of it after filming is usually like whatever– and then I edit it and manage to put it up and that’s that. I don’t watch them… But they aren’t really for me. They are created for me to express myself, but not for me to consume, so if others enjoy something I create, and I don’t, who’s opinion matters?

The Birthday Tag Show Notes

So I was looking for a good tag for bday questions and decided to make my own so I decided on 26 questions (cause spoiler alert that is how old I am going to be this year: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
  1. How old are you going to be?
  2. What is your favorite birthday memory?
  3. What time were you born?
  4. What was your favorite gift?
  5. Gift you always wanted but never got
  6. Secret birthday wish as a kid
  7. Famous person who shares your birthday
  8. Do you like cake or no?
  9. Do you like surprise parties?
  10. What is a gift you want now but would never ask for/get for yourself (dream gift)
  11. What party theme would you love to have?
  12. What did you want to be when you grew up?
  13. What internet speed did you have growing up?
  14. What was your favorite kids’ show?
  15. Did you get a permit to drive at 16?
  16. Did you/will you have a sweet 16?
  17. What was your Sr year like?
  18. Did you do 18+ things when you finally hit 18?
  19. Did you wait until the legal drinking age to try alcohol?
  20. How old were you when you had your first kiss/boyfriend?
  21. First bar/club (did you like it?)
  22. Have you reached the age of your birth day? (For instance, my bday is 9/22)
  23. Do you still get cards/gifts from family/friends?
  24. How old were you when you lost your virginity?
  25. Do you actually enjoy birthdays or ignore them?
  26. How old were your parents when they had you?

*Warning this video contains strong language, viewer discretion is advised. *

So we filmed this as a multi going away for Kat and double birthday for me and Adrianne and let’s just say that it was only through the magic of editing that I was able to find a semi-coherent video here. Why did I only half ass do my face? The world may never know. The questions were made up by me, and hilariously at the time I wrote them they sounded good but in editing, they all sound generic and boring. Sorry bout it.

Show Notes: (the future of the blog)

Well, that didn’t take long.
I still haven’t fully decided how I’m going to do this. Frankly, for a Slytherin I’m intolerably indecisive when it comes to things like this (or at least as of late). But here’s the thing, I have decided on a couple of things.

#1 – Show notes:

This one has been kind of a long time coming. I’m embarrassed to admit, I came up with this idea months ago. I’ve debated for some time holding off on it, maybe using it as a feature for my future Patreon if I decided to go down that road, but honestly at this point, I kind of just want to do this because it’s just sitting there. I spend a LOT of time writing out show notes for each video I make. Whether it’s just a general note of things I want to talk about or a full ‘script’ there’s a lot of information that doesn’t always make it into the video, so I figured these show notes might offer people who enjoy my videos a sort of behind the scenes look into my process.
Why share them now? Aren’t we seeing them in the video?
Yes and no. My videos aren’t specifically scripted; even if I write out what amounts to a script when it comes time to film videos– things don’t always end up the way I wrote them, and that’s a good thing. I thought it might be fun to offer readers and viewers a behind the scenes take on my vlogs. I also have a number of videos that I had notes for that never made it or videos that have already been done that I have notes for all of which could eventually be shared here.
#2 – Archives
One of the biggest questions I’ve been trying to figure out is how I want to do these show notes, and what happens to the content already available here? Should I just leave this as purely an archival site, sharing show notes through another platform like Tumblr? Or should I utilize the subscriber base I’ve already procured on WordPress and post the show notes here offering a mix of both the video itself in each post along with the show notes for said video? This to me seems like the most obvious choice, at least for the time being. I’ve spent a good amount of time building up the audience that I already have, it would be a shame to just abandon that and leave the blog purely for archival purposes without ever updating things.
 
#3 – Essays, Podcasts, and Shorts
Now that I’ve officially left Wix for WordPress, there’s a number of things that I still think I want to share. I have tentative plans to share some essays as a YouTube video (maybe a compilation of 2 or 3, I haven’t decided yet) and even more tentative plans to archive all podcast episodes with YouTube (and any future episodes that may occur).  The psychical written copies of the essays will continue to live on through the blog, and eventually, once I’m settled on how I want to do things I can archive podcast episodes here as well (but more on that in future). As for short stories, I’m not sure I’ll be sharing the ‘original’ Wix versions anytime soon but that isn’t to say I won’t want to share them in future, which I think is part of why this blog has been next to impossible to get rid of. I just have a thousand and one ideas and plans and thoughts and I like to keep my options open.
What does this all mean? In the abstract, it means that this blog will be a lot more active than it usually is. Between ‘new’ show notes, and old show notes I could reasonably put up a new post every day, and if ever there’s a time when I want to share some type of thought or note that isn’t necessary vlog specific, that could also be done on a non-vlog day. This offers me plenty of options with how I proceed with the blog in question and keeping up everything as I’ve wanted to for all this time.
I don’t know yet whether or not I’ll take the time to make actual blogs again, frankly show notes are something in between a blog and a script. They probably read enough like a blog post but a number of them can be a little jumpy as they are meant to serve more as talking points than as scripts. Ultimately I feel like this will offer me a considerable amount of freedom because the blog isn’t so much about blogging and whatever that means, as it is, sharing a behind the scenes look at something new that I’m working on, mixed in with other things on my mind. Maybe there are more thoughts I have on a story than I want or can put in a video, and rather than crowding my YouTube description box with all of this, I can share it in a long-form blog post. Where the idea came from, my motivations, or even addendums/author notes. This will open greater creative avenues for me, and hopefully, allow an even greater interaction with subscribers as they will be able to have an even deeper depth into my work than what would be traditionally seen through vlogs. Or at least, that’s the hope and idea. They can also comment here and leave suggestions for topics and ideas, answer polls and everything in between.